Crystal Montoya

Happy Birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DICKIE!

 

I wish I could buy this for you. I love you.

Notice: This World Contains Known Carcinogens

When I first moved to California 4 years ago, I immediately noticed that there were signs posted all over the place notifying the public that the area or building we  were in had known carcinogens. It sort of freaked me out the first time I saw one because it was posted on the building of my new job. I called my boss and asked him about it and he informed me that these signs are everywhere and they are. You can't walk into most buildings here without seeing a sign posted warning you of the presence of cancer causing agents.

I sort of got used to it, they are so common that you barely notice them anymore. If you do not live in California and you do not see signs like this posted in your state, it's not because the cancer causing agents are not there, it is because your state has not mandated that the information be posted.

The fact is that you probably often purchase cancer contributing agents and use the in your home all of the time. Benzene for example attacks your bone marrow and can cause MDS and other blood cancers. It is found in gasoline, paint, and detergents, among other things. Now, the CDC and EPA tell us the the amount of benzene in these products is not enough to cause these conditions. I am always amazed at how many people are just willing to accept their "facts" without questions.

I have questions. I want to know how they know what a safe level is. Have they actually exposed all different types of people to different levels of benzene and recorded the results? Is that how they came up with their guidelines? Of course they have not. They have tested animals and then made assumptions about how humans would be affected. How can they know it is safe for you to go to the gas station and fill up your vehicle without wearing a protective mask? I actually wear a protective mask at the gas station and I believe any person with Aplastic Anemia, MDS, Leukemia or other blood condition should absolutely do the same. I even feel that healthy people would stay healthier if they did this, especially truck drivers and those poor folks in Oregon who do nothing but fill people's tanks all day. The rise in these rare blood diseases is caused by something and the FDA, CDC, and EPA all agree that benzene exposure can cause all of them.

Now these signs posted all over have me thinking. It's a toxic world. Even if you don't see the signs where you live you can be certain that you are exposed to all kinds of toxic stuff all the time. A diet high in organic fruits and vegetables is an absolute must. Those foods are detoxifying. The best food though to combat radioactive chemical exposure is seaweed. Seaweed is actually very yummy and I highly recommend the seaweed salad at Sushi Deli One in Hillcrest. It's salty, it's crunchy and it's only $2.99.

Plant a Seed and Watch Yourself Grow!

About a year ago I decided to grow a vegetable garden. I went into it full speed without much knowledge to back me up. Even as I get older I suffer from a condition called no patience and I can tend to look past details sometimes because I am so focused on the end result. I guess I always assume I'll know how to handle the details just by simply going through the process to get to whatever goal I have in mind. This lack of patience and going full speed ahead on things has given me one of two results, it has either been completely successful or it has failed miserably.

I had the benefit of a team when it has been successful , both my supervisors and people that I supervised. They had a lot of things that I did not such as experience, knowledge, ability, and they had to be there if they were going to get paid. This was always the scenario when I was successful at something new in my career life. I had an ability to accomplish challenging goals without ever having accomplished that goal before. I was able to bring an established building from 80% occupancy to 100%, I completed a full lease up on a high end building in a low end neighborhood in record time. Before I did this I had no idea how to do it. What I did have was a large network of people who had done it before and it was in their best interest to tell me how to do it. I also had a group of people who were paid to provide the labor. This is what I miss the most about going to work. I took my career goals very personally when I was working and it was always so exciting to make a goal and realize it. It was so easy with an excellent team and my team always consisted of the most knowledgeable and hard working people.

I am realizing more than ever how important it is to have a good team surrounding you in all aspects of life. Maybe it is possible to accomplish goals without a team but I do not believe it will be nearly as rewarding. Finding mentors and then in turn becoming a mentor is such a wonderful thing. It can make the difference between success and failure.

What does this have to do with my garden? When I decided to grow a garden I did not understand yet just how much of a team effort it would just naturally become and I did not know that plants would not be the only thing that grew. A garden helps people grow too. My first mistake was not considering the plants and what they really needed to thrive. I realize this was a silly oversight but it is what it is. I was considering space more than anything at first. I thought I had to leave the yard the yard and have a garden on the side. I didn't consider that I could make the whole yard a vegetable garden. It's our yard and Dickie, bless his heart knows that he isn't going to talk me out of my big ideas so why can't I use every inch of dirt for my vegetables? That's really the way it has to be for the plants because we have a very small yard and the conditions are just not right for the plants in the corner of the yard.

My first attempt at planting seeds failed miserably. I rototilled my soil (after finding a few mentors I have learned this is the wrong approach). I added a bunch of steer manure and then immediately planted my seeds. Then I did not water it nearly as much as it needed because I was afraid of over watering it. The whole thing was a dud. It was like lighting a fire cracker and waiting for the explosion that never comes.  I realized something was wrong and I decided to talk to some experts. It turns out I planted my seeds too soon after adding the manure and most likely burned them. I also needed more water so off I went again, this time adding some organic compost into my soil and planting more seeds.

This time within just a few days I had beautiful baby veggies popping out of my dirt. I excitedly called all my friends with the birth announcements and continued to watch as my babies turned into actual vegetables that I could eat. I was still making a lot of mistakes at this point though, I did get some zucchini, spinach, kale, tomatoes and basil that I could eat but I ended up with mildew problems and I was really missing the biggest piece of the puzzle which was building the soil. I had a small compost thing going but I was not doing it properly. I had no knowledge or experience and I had not found a really good mentor yet. I also had not seriously tried to find one, I did not do nearly enough research first.

After my semi successful crop, I decided I needed more space so without stopping to ask any questions or find out what the experts say I went full speed ahead again. I rototilled more of my yard and added a bunch of compost and started over again. Then I realized I really don't know what the hell I am doing and maybe I should do more reading and investigation on the subject. How silly of me. In my haste my time was a waste. I think I have learned a lot about patience and I will not continue to do this to myself in my future endeavors.

The first thing I learned is not to rototill. It completely disturbs the worms and all the good stuff the soil needs. I also realized that I made another very silly mistake which was putting my beds under my avocado tree. I'm embarrassed to even admit that to you but I really did. It is clear that I was still not yet considering the plants but instead the idea that I had to leave the yard the yard and have a garden on the side. I have the biggest avocados that I have ever seen. One of them weighed 1.6 pounds this year. How much more oblivious to what would be healthy for my plants could I possibly be? I put them directly under all of these falling bombs that could potentially land on them and smash them to smithereens. 

We did pick as many of the the avocados with a basket picker (super cool tool) as we could but there's still 2 potential grenades hanging up there like a dark, ominous cloud. My mistake was caught by Bill, the sweet, patient, and smart owner of City Farmer's Nursery on Home Avenue. Bill is amazing and generous with his time and knowledge. In exchange for a few avocados he has taught me more about how to realize my dream than anyone. I also owe a lot of my new knowledge to those wonderful folks at Food Not Lawns. Bill helped me get past the idea that my yard has to be a yard with a garden but instead my entire yard has to be used if I want to meet my goals. We have a very small yard, if our tree and our vegetables are going to thrive there can be no other design, the vegetables go right in the middle.

I'm starting to develop a team and it's amazing how many people want to help. I have been talking a lot about my desires for my garden and the law of attraction has taken it's course. Krista is has offered me a Mandarin tree, Eddie brought me a planter box. Bill is going to come over and help me develop a plan. I am looking for some Aloe Vera plants and a couple more planter boxes. I am not worried about finding them because I know that as I share my goals with people and put the garden energy out there the law of attraction will come into play and someone will offer me some cuttings from their Aloe Vera and since I know there was already 1 planter box out there that someone was happy to unload on me, there must be more. (hint, hint) 

At the moment I do have some plants started and some of them are in the right area so I hope I will have some things that I can eat in the next couple months. There is something so satisfying in planting a seed and watching it grow. I am hoping that more and more people are going to catch this fever. I am sure trying to spread it around. I hope for your sake if you do and if you have absolutely no experience like me that you will do some research first just to save yourself some of the error in the trial and error process that growing food or anything for that matter, naturally is.

My top resources so far have been:

Bill at City Farmer's Nursery in San Diego  619- 284-6358

Food Not Lawns in San Diego http://www.sdfoodnotlawns.com/

The Gardener's A-Z Guide to Growing Organic Food. by Tanya L.K. Denckla

The next book I will purchase when I have some book money is actually called Food Not Lawns by H.C. Flores.

I guess it's possible I have not yet motivated you grow as much food as your land will allow and that's understandable. There are a lot of reasons why that is not possible for many people but it's possible to grow something edible and the rewards are priceless. Grow some herbs in pots, just grow something you can eat and share. I am certain you will find that you are growing more than what you see in the dirt.

My small amount of experience with growing a garden has certainly made me grow. I am excited to see what else I grow in the future.

 

What should we be feeding our pets?

In the past couple of days I have been doing much research on what is the best diet for our furry family members. What I have found should not surprise me and I guess it doesn't, I'm just disappointed that again I find that money is a much bigger factor than human decency.

Commercial pets foods are garbage, plain and simple. Even the "good" ones are nothing more than crap backed by fantastic marketing teams who live and breathe to manipulate you into believing their food is beneficial to your pet. They are lying or at best they are ignorant.

Our pets will not thrive on these foods that are full of wheat and corn. You animal would never eat wheat and corn in the wild. Your cat especially would never even really eat fruit of vegetables. They are meat eaters. Before commercial cat food, cats lived on mice. Cats were used to control mice populations because their natural diet is mice and other small animals.

Your cat wouldn't build a fire and roast his mouse before eating it because your cat would know that doing so would kill off the beneficial enzymes and bacteria, things that are essential for their health. Animals need raw meat, this is the conclusion that I have come to after just a small amount of research.

Again, you may have a hard time with this because it goes against what you have been told your entire life. It certainly goes against what you would probably feed yourself. Most people are completely convinced that raw meat is dangerous and I guess it can be, especially for people who do not have the right bacteria in their gut to properly digest it. There are some people who eat raw meat consistently and they believe their health is much better for it. I don't eat raw meat but I am not going to say that people who do are wrong or crazy, it's working for them.

I'm not talking today about us though, I am talking about our animals who have very different nutritional requirements than we do. Raw meat and raw bone is absolutely the best thing we can give our animals, it's what they would eat if they had their choice and it's what we as responsible pet owners should be feeding them to ensure a long and healthy life for them.

They need more than just raw meat and bone, Some grains like brown rice or millet are okay, some good oils like sesame or fish oil are necessary, flax is good for them. Eggs are fantastic. They need beneficial bacteria like acidophilus, especially if you can't get past giving them raw meat and must cook it. Until I can get to a vet and talk to them about the best recipes to use to make my animals food, I am using a brand that I got at South Bark Dog Wash called Nature's Variety. http://www.naturesvariety.com/ 

The prescription food I was told to give Habanero before he passed away was Hill's Prescription C/D wet cat food. The first ingredient on the label is pork by-products. Now admittedly I don't spend a lot of time with cats out in the wild and I don't personally know what they eat. I am almost certain though that they do not eat pork by-products. It just seems like it would take one nasty pack of wild cats to kill a pig, maybe it's possible. If they did manage to kill a pig would they only choose to eat the by-products? I don't think so. The next ingredient is pork liver which is better than by-products but I am still not convinced that pork is something my cat should eat. Then we have fish - which I imagine is great but I have to wonder what kind of fish and how was it grown. Then oat fiber...that's not so bad I don't think. Chicken fat - that's good but wait ...corn starch and corn gluten meal? Cats don't eat corn do they? If they do are they going to separate the corn gluten and eat only that?

The pet food industry is just like the people food industry only I imagine they can get away with putting even nastier by-product sludge into the pet food than they can our food. Maybe not, the fact is that I don't eat by-products and my animals will not either.

The cost of buying the raw food is not that much more than buying the high end commercial foods that was had been buying. I imagine when I am able to get the proper recipes and start making my own I will spend the same or even less than I was on the Nutro Natural Choice that convinced us they were the best with their false advertising.

It would be nice to be able to walk into your average pet store and know that the foods there were nutritious for your pet but you can't. Gone are the days when the majority of companies wanted to sell a superior product for a fair price. Gone are the days when a reputation was all you had. Now, corporations do not care if their customers are satisfied, their goal is not to make you healthy even when they say it is. Food, pet food, soaps, cosmetics, cleaning agents, drugs, are all marketed to make you believe you will be gaining health by using them but very seldom anymore is that true and in so many cases the truth is exactly opposite of what they tell you. They know you will believe their advertising. There are still some good companies left and I encourage you to research the truth about how your pets should be eating and try to give them the closest thing you can.

Now of course, I believe many American people do not understand how to nourish themselves either which I also encourage you to research. If you are going to maintain your health well into old age, it will not be by listening to the authorities on health care, which really sucks but it is very much the truth. Your average doctor and certainly the FDA either do not have or do not share the best information on optimal health which will always begin with a natural diet.

Why Lawn?

Dickie and I have been having some much needed repair work done around our house and as the house continues to look better, all I seem to notice is that the yard seems to be looking worse. I also have a burning desire to grow an impressive portion of our produce, and maybe even have some to share with the neighbors, so when I saw the flier advertising a free convention called Food Not Lawns, I was there.

It was fantastic. There were a bunch of classes and the ones I chose to attend were genetically engineered foods, growing an edible landscape in San Diego, and organic gardening. They had booths set up in a courtyard with all kinds of information about making food more accessible and growing your own food. They asked everyone to bring their own plates and utensils for the wonderful lunch they provided so they could eliminate the waste. They served free coffee in ceramic mugs and they had a fantastic seed exchange.

The newest terrifying thing that I learned about genetically engineered foods is that they are starting to add drugs to the plant's DNA. The Bayer company is testing this now. Some day it may be possible to get rid of a headache by eating some Bayer brand popcorn, too bad there are no labeling requirements on these foods...I don't suffer from headaches.

The man teaching the edible landscape class showed gorgeous pictures of his landscape that was not only completely edible but also very beautiful. I started to realize that these people are really on to something. Why don't we all grow food in our yards instead of manicured lawns? I was talking to my dad about this and in trying to clarify what I was saying he asked "You're going to grow food in the back and have a lawn in front, right?"  When I explained that no, I was in fact planning to grow food in every inch of soil that I can he tentatively said "That's a little out there isn't it?" Out there...as in nutty, loopy, lost marbles, or crazy because I am not going to grow a manicured lawn and I am instead going to grow things that we can eat. I say no that's not out there and when you really think about it, isn't growing a lawn a little out there, a little nutty, a little crazy? I am now convinced it is.

What are we doing by growing lawns? Originally a lawn was grown to show all of the poor folks how wealthy one was, so wealthy they could just use a significant part of their land for nothing but grass. It's silly if you ask me. I'm sure now days people don't think about their lawn as a display of their wealth, it's just what you are suppose to do with the dirt around your house, right? Some people get quite serious about their lawn and they become competitive about it, wanting to be the house in the neighborhood with the nicest blades of grass but what purpose do those blades of grass serve? What can you really do with grass? Why not grow something more suited to our climate or better still, something that we could eat and share with the neighbors? Why not get competitive about growing the best lemons rather than the best grass? I am very competitive so I understand a competitive nature and completely support healthy competition but growing grass is not healthy for anyone or any thing.

Let's take a look at what it takes to grow a perfect lawn and how that affects your health and the health of your environment. First of all, plants need food to flourish, grass included. I'm assuming here but I think it is safe to say that the vast majority of people who grow a gorgeous lawn do not use natural fertilizers or food for them. Chemical fertilizers are toxic to you and your environment. The majority of the fertilizers you use go right into the atmosphere and are part of the air you, your children, your pets, and wildlife breathes in. No body, human or animal needs this. A good part of what does not rise into the air gets washed away with watering and winds up in our oceans where it wrecks havoc on our ocean wildlife and plants. This is happening at a very fast pace and I believe in our life time, because of chemical fertilizers and other human caused contamination we will infect, mutate, and kill all of the fish that would have otherwise been one of nature's most perfect foods. That is if we keep doing things like we have been doing them. Contrary to what you might think the vast majority of chemical fertilizers used in this country are used by the average American growing lawns, not by farmers growing food.

Of course there are the weeds that have to be addressed when growing a lawn. The most popular product used for this is Round Up. Aside from the fact that the Monsanto company has grossly manipulated the courts into allowing plant species to be genetically modified and patented, planting round up resistant grains that are completely unnatural and will have devastating effects on our health, then sued private farmers who had their round up resistant patented grains in their land because of wind pollination, and actually won in court, taking these poor farmers crops, their product is just nasty. It can cause skin irritation, lung congestion, erosion of the intestinal tract in small amounts and is lethal if ingested. Again, we need to consider our children, pets, and wildlife. I will never purchase a Round Up product again in my life and I hope none of you will either.

The last thing an impressive lawn needs is water of course. Lawns require a lot more water that native plants or food plants do. We don't have a lot of water to spare and wasting it on lawns seems crazy to me.

Essentially, a lawn does nothing for you and certainly adds to our already overwhelming problem of pollution, chemical exposure, and disruption of the natural balance of our home and planet.  I believe growing a lawn in this day and age is pretty out there.

I have made a commitment to grow useful and at the very least indigenous plants in my little plot of land. In doing so, I will eliminate the need for chemical fertilizers (I will compost my own plant food), I will not need to use chemical weed killers because I will control weeds simply by mulching and pulling any weeds that get through. I will significantly reduce our water consumption because indigenous plants and food plants require less water especially when grouped together properly. I will also be fostering a natural environment that will allow wildlife such as bees, butterflies, birds, and worms to flourish.

I wonder how quickly our planet would start to recover of all of us made this commitment to work with nature when working with the soil we have. It all comes down to the soil, we can choose to build it and nurture it by growing beneficial plants in it or we can choose to strip it and sterilize it so we can grow a lawn in it. Let's stop this craziness and do our part. It's a win win and in my opinion, a no brainer.

I am interested to see what kind of response I get from people when my yard is transformed into an entirely organic, edible oasis. I'm sure the majority of people will initially think I'm a little out there. I believe this idea will eventually catch on as more and more people start to really understand how much damage is being done by growing a lawn, especially here in San Diego where a lawn must essentially be forced to grow. It's not natural.

There is a huge problem with our bee populations right now. You may have seen a blip or two about it but I am concerned that this problem is not getting the media coverage it should. Bees pollinate 90% of our plants - this includes our food. I believe this problem is caused in part by these toxins we all so absent mindedly introduce into nature. If this problem continues to worsen as it has been we will be in serious trouble. Without bees we will not have food, it really is that significant.

These are just some of my thoughts about why I believe I am the one who is sane in choosing to grow edible foods and those people who grow lawns are actually the ones who are a little off. I realize that I'm calling the vast majority of people a little off and I mean no disrespect, I just think you have been misguided. You have always grown a lawn and your father before you always grew a lawn so it seems like it makes sense. You have probably never questioned it before. I am asking you to question it now.   

   

    

Farewell Habanero

This weekend was a sad one in the Montoya home. Habanero, our 11-year old tabby cat lost his life yesterday after he suddenly became very ill.

He was just fine until Thursday night when he came down with cystitis and FUTI. He had what we would call a bladder infection and crystals in his urine. There is potential that the crystals can block the urethra and cause him to be unable to urinate. If this happens it is an emergency situation. He has gone through this once before and he was fine. We took him to the vet on Friday and they expressed his bladder, gave him fluids, gave him an injection (I'm sorry to say I don't know what it was), gave me amoxicillan to give him at home and told me to feed him Science Diet C/D wet cat food.

We came home on Friday and he seemed okay, he did urinate a little on his own. We went for a follow up appointment on Saturday and they gave him another injection and more fluids. Saturday night we fed him his second can of science diet food and continued with the antibiotic. He seemed to be feeling a little better and was purring like crazy while I was playing with him.

Yesterday morning things just went bad. Hab woke Dick and I up when he crawled up on the bed and was just not breathing well at all. We thought maybe his bladder had backed up and he needed to pee but he had urinated on his own. We rushed him to the emergency vet and they immediately put him on oxygen.

Maybe I'm just emotional about the loss of my very good friend and very important part of our family  but I strongly feel the events that transpired from the moment I walked into the hospital with Hab were horrible. I am now solidly convinced the the practice of veterinary medicine is even more corrupt and disgusting than the practice of human medicine, something I didn't think was possible.

Hab was in heart failure and had a lot of fluid on his lungs. They immediately wanted me to authorize more than $300 to knock him out and drain the fluid. The vet did not come out to talk to me at this point and Dick and I had questions so we asked to talk to the vet. While sitting in an empty exam room and waiting for 10 minutes to talk to the vet I was wondering what was happening to Habanero. The vet came in and told me that Hab seemed to be okay on oxygen and instead of needing $300 right now to drain the lungs, they should probably do $150 worth of xrays to look at the lungs first. Knowing that I would not want someone puncturing my lung before they looked at an xray of it, we authorized the xray.

At this point Dick and I are very aware that these people care much less about our cat and the future quality of his life, if there is to be any than they do about acquiring as many of our dollars as they can while we are in a highly emotional state of mind. Dick and I want very much for our cat to come home again.

The xrays showed definite heart disease, fluid on the lungs, and they could not rule out cancer. As soon as they delivered this news they handed us an estimate for around $1500 so they could possibly get him through the night. They would not really say what his chances were, at one point I asked if he even had a 50/50 chance and the vet could not say. If they did succeed they were absolutely certain that Habanero would require frequent lab work, 2-3 medications twice daily, and regular vet visits for the rest of his life. They were not sure how long the rest of his life could last but they did want to make it clear that the exact episode that was happening now would likely happen again, even with all of the medical intervention that we would be providing for him.

Dick and I had to make the heart breaking decision to let Hab go. I hope we made the right choice. It's really hard to say for sure. Habanero meant a lot to this family, I suppose he was the King of the house. Now there is definitely an empty spot that everyone is noticing. If Dick and I thought that Habanero was going to have any kind of quality of life we certainly would have done everything to try and save him. We did not feel that Hab was going to have the same happy, lazy, and comfortable life after this. We didn't think it would be at all the same for him.

As soon as we told the vet our wishes, they inserted a needle into Hab's leg for the injection. They did this before we had a chance to say goodbye to him so when we got to see him he was in even more pain and completely annoyed because of the huge needle in his leg. Why would they do this when we told them we wanted to see him, didn't they realize this would make the cat even more uncomfortable than he was in the first place?

Of course there is always an icing on the cake and the icing we got matched the horrible taste of the cake itself. They immediately came in to discuss our options for Hab's remains. I cannot even believe this now but here are the options they gave us:

We could have him put to sleep and not be present for $80.00. If we wanted to be with our pet while he died, we'd have to pay $20.00 extra. This is complete BS if you ask me. We paid the extra so Dick could stay with the cat that has been his best buddy for the last 11 years while he died.

It gets even icier because now we have to decide what to do with Hab. We can either pay $150 to have him cremated and keep his ashes, we can pay $100 to have him cremated and have his ashes spread at sea (because cats generally love being in water so much?!), or we can pay $80.00 and he'll most likely be used in make up - yes ladies, I said he would most likely be used in making make-up. This is ACTUALLY what the guy said. 

I feel like I'm talking a lot about money and I do not want anyone to think that money is more important to us than our pet was. It is not. What I am saying is that it is quite clear to me that veterinarians are banking on the fact that most people value their pets as priceless. They are priceless but reality is that sometimes it is time for your pet to die. Sometimes money won't help. I don't think the average vet is going to tell you when money won't help. They would make less money then. I think the way Dick and I were treated yesterday was terrible.

After we made all of the decisions, they immediately came in with the bill so we could get that paid before Hab died so we wouldn't have to deal with it afterward. Yeah right, I may have believed that was a kind gesture if the preceding few hours had gone differently but they didn't. From the moment I walked in the door they were trying to play on our emotions and persuade us to spend a lot of money without giving us any real hope that it would make a difference. They were going to just puncture the lung without even looking at it. That's ridiculous. How does it cost them anymore money to have the owner of a pet present in the last moment of his pet's life?   

Before Thursday Habanero was a healthy cat. He was a happy cat and an incredibly loving cat. He went downhill very quickly. I believe that my cat was a victim of horrible veterinary care. I believe he was over medicated and given food that could have contributed to his sudden heart failure. The Science Diet brand has included a couple of their foods in the recall that you may have seen all over the news but they maintain that the food they told me to give Habanero was not included. I think something was wrong with one of the medications or the food and you will never convince me otherwise.  I am kicking myself for subjecting Habanero to this kind of care, I would not subject myself to it. There is no way in hell I would go into my doctor and allow him to give me injections I knew nothing about or take antibiotics without trying nutritional approaches first.

Animals will benefit from a holistic approach to their health just as much as humans. I will find a holistic vet for my other pets today and I will start giving them food that matches their natural diet as closely as possible.  I will be doing much research on animal health so that I can try to prevent something like this from ever happening to another one of our pets.

I'm sorry I failed you Habanero. Rest In Peace.